Instead of Holding Back yourself, Start letting GO.
Recently in 2021 around January end my maternal grandfather came to visit us. For a guy who is 85 plus he functions pretty well, just lost some of his senses, as in, you need to guide him for all the things, he can’t take care on his own. So, one day in morning we all got up and brushed our teeth, and my mother asked me to help him with washing his teeth. I asked him to do a gargle with turmeric & salt as paste and run his fingers through his teeth in brush like motion, I completely forgot that he uses dentures. So, while brushing he pulls them out hesitantly and then started gargling. I saw a good amount of stuck food particles coming out through that gargle, don’t know from when it was. Also the part of dentures where it touches the mouth was having a thick layer of chewed food stuck to it like a covering. I started to wash it off with brush and was feeling sad on his condition, thinking about whole old age thing.
Then after this incident I went for morning walk in my locality. As it was a January morning, so cold breeze was flowing. While walking my mind was running around those dentures, I was having too many thoughts but one thought stand out the most that life is too short to waste it while “Holding Back” yourself, you never know what is waiting for you in future, if you will be able to fulfill the task that you have procrastinated. That moment I realized a big thing that in various instances of my life, I have held myself back more than I can count. Be it someone else cancelling the plan that want to execute or my friends being uninterested in things that I was want to do. As usual I held myself back thinking “what will I do alone?”. Because of which today it created a great pile of regrets in my life on which I dwell upon a lot from time to time.
So from now on I have decided that, I will not hold back that is hesitate to act or speak due to outer reasons cause today I am more mature and capable of understanding the regret those little things can cause, so I start letting go if its not a hinderance for people around you.
The only moment you have in hand is now. Don’t make your future self have those feelings again in loop which you are having now.
